So I went to a church and saw that my former
friend was also in the church again (why must i always seat behind him?) and it made me remember
when he once said that he wanted to leave his present church and go back to
this church so in my 'trying to be civil' manner, I sent him a message saying that it
is a good thing he has taken the step that he had wanted knowing how he was in
turmoil about taking the step.
And that is when he made a big mistake! A
simple thank you would have been fine but he decided to say some things that I
am not going to post. I was shocked and mad at first but after talking to a friend I
came to realize that I had no reason to be mad. Honestly I really don’t think I am mad. After realising that I decided to have fun. You know how na, by irritating the heck out of him! And the best part
of him using his hand to type the things he wrote was that he gave me the inspiration
for this post.
I have not seen him for a while and the
couple of times I saw him, I practically did a 'u turn' and walked away. At the
point I de-friended him, I vowed not to say a word to him but thinking about it
later on, I decided that for me not to have to explain what had happened between
us I would have to at least say “hi” when I see him on the pathway as against
knocking him down on his ass as i originally planned (as if I can…….haha). So for me to smoothen the
way so that I don’t revert to my original plan, I have sent about 4 small
messages since we separated.
But apparently to him, I was trying to find a way for us to relate
back with small talk (God only knows what he meant by that cos since i am not a psychic i don't know what he feeling or even what it means). But in my true drama queen style (yes, Fatima I
saw your post) I had sent over 5 messages that were not coated with sugar and was getting angry before my
friend asked me why i was getting angry and for the life of me I
couldn’t state one reason. Apparently it was like a bad habit that when you have tried to stop and think you have gotten rid of it, it crops up at the slightest provocation. I was so used to getting mad and fighting with him that when he started typing, i got angry......me and all my drama sha, lol.
I realized that I was no more the person he
knew. Apparently I had matured some more within the time we were not friends
(this is getting scary, I am maturing…..arggggghhhhhhh. I am just kidding
guys……lol). I have found that everything that had happened was for my own good.
I think i realized that when something happened last month and all I could say to God was
‘you really do know what you are doing’.
The fact that we were friends and no more
friends was and is for a very good reason. And that reason is only known to God, me,
myself and I alone…sorry i am not saying this one. It is amazing how things work together for my good.
After I realised that I had no reason to be angry and I realised I was not
angry, I did what any mischievous person would do. I started stroking the fire.
I replied very well just to irritate and annoy the crap out of him. I know, I
know, I am a bad girl (coveringmyeyes) but I was feeling bored and uninspired and my eyes are
really hurting but I was not sleepy so I decided to continue yapping and making
him yap. It was just perfect for me.
He said he was hurt by the previous post I
wrote (if you didn’t read it previously, click here) and that the last message
I sent reminded him of the hurt. Well, like I told him, I am sorry that what I
wrote hurt him but I am not sorry for what I felt. I was hurt and saddened at that
time and really confused because what happened was relatively new to me but now I am so super grateful for all what happened. I
really learnt a whole lot and I think it has helped me in other things that have occurred lately in my life.
After that period I learnt that you lose
some, you win some. I was spiraling into a place that was not good for me at
that time. Now I know the signs and once such things happen for the sake of not
de-friending another friend or going back to that place I just back off a bit and let things cool off. It is
not healthy to be bickering (like he just said we were doing…..i didn’t know I
bicker o but he said it) every blessed day. Or to be made to feel like you didn’t matter but
hey, people act in different ways. That is what makes the world a very interesting
place. Imagine if everyone was like me…..yikes!
Anywhoo just thought I would turn what would
have been a nasty situation into a wonderful one. I had a nice time laughing at
myself this night. Hey, you learn to roll with the punches and live life to the
fullest.
Hey doc, I didn’t diss you a lot as I said I
would. Hopefully you like this post. I have decided that some things ain’t
worth too much drama. I have moved on and don’t feel like coming back. It was
not really a nice place for me. So when I see you in the consulting room or on
the walk way I would try not to shove you on your ass and fake a big smile and
a bigger HELLO (in my baby voice) and let the whole world know I am fine with
everything. But note this, you say something that gets me really mad and I
might chop off your legs…..i am kidding o! Hahaha…..i am a lover not a fighter.
Enough said, I am off to bed. And hope I
didn’t make you check out my blog (like I was just told) but you read it
because you just want to know what mischief I have been up to. I promise I
would be a good girl tomorrow. I have to be, I am getting my afro flattened
out. Betty (my hair) is getting a creamy crack application. I am so nervous. I
was supposed to get my camera today and then take pictures with it tomorrow but
since it didn’t arrive today, I have no choice but to go ahead with my plans without it.
Oh well, life goes on. Hope my phone pictures would be good enough.
Till tomorrow guys, I can’t wait to see my
hair length….yay!! Thanks for stopping by.
Luv ya,
A Very Naughty Petite Diva
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