Wednesday, May 18, 2011

LOVING THE SERIOUS REVIEWS

Lately I have been getting some reviews concerning my blog, the writing style and content. It has been kinda mixed, a little bit of good and a little bit of lukewarm reviews.

I want to write about certain things that people should put into consideration when reading my blog.

Number 1: Don’t believe at least 30% of what you read on my blog. I am trying to be interesting so I might (the word is ‘might’) adjust the truth a bit. Hey! I am trying to be exciting. My life sometimes is boring so i need to help it. So I guess this is my warning ‘if you read anything here and don’t confirm from me before you spread anything you are on your own o!'

Number 2: A friend said that whenever he reads my blog he is amazed that it is a pharmacist writing it. I don’t know if it is a good thing or a bad one but this is what I feel. I love being a pharmacist. I am proud and know that I am blessed to have the privilege to be called one. However when work is over I want to relax and put the responsibility cloak of pharmacy off me. I am not the 'clubbing' or 'going out a lot' person so I relax by watching movies, cleaning (weird huh?) and writing.

My writing style is a whole lot different from my speaking style. I feel like I am free to say what I want in the way that I want and not stiffly or should I rather say ‘professionally’ like I would when I am in my 'pharmacist mode'. So when writing I like saying ‘OMG (for those who don’t know what OMG is, it is Oh my God!), ‘pissing me off’ or ‘f**k off’ when I feel like. Words I probably won’t say (or say a lot) when talking. I like the way I feel like i am a bestselling writer when I am writing. It gives me such a great feeling. It makes me feel good like i am achieving something that is different from pharmacy. I really love writing.

So it is kinda of strange that I might write in a peculiar way but that is what I love about my writing. I can be whoever I want to be on my blog and I don’t think I should apologize for that. So people bear with my writing style snd just enjoy reading my blog.

Number 3: So I hate to admit it but I must before I get into trouble when people think my blog is the world’s most authentic source of my life adventures and turn to my publicity secretary/agent. I don’t entirely give all my info here. I keep some to myself, I remodify some and relay to you and I give you some of the most authentic gist about my life. All in all, I assure you that majority of my life experiences are true. Which one you might wonder? Wwwell, that is for me to know and you to find out when I want you to.

I think I have talked a bit about what I feel today. Need to have my beauty sleep. It has been a very tedious day.

Oh! By the way, NYSC is coming to an end. Amazing, it feels like yesterday when I came to Akwa-Ibom. Now it looks like I am about to leave it for good. That is part of the issues I am having. What issues have cropped up into my life? I would let you guys know very soon.

Gotta run (or rather gotta sleep).
See you soon.

Luv,
Petite Diva.

Monday, May 9, 2011

I AM RUNNING OUT OF LOVE STEAM FOR MY FIRST LOVE

I really don’t know how to start this post. I have been staring at my computer for the past one hour and I seem confused on how best to put my feelings into words. I think I am having a writer’s block (that feels good to say or write). I hope this post would be great.

I don’t know how it happened but lately I have been feeling a little differently for my first love. I have gone from being in love with him to just wishing and hoping we would be good friends.

I think I just got tired of being made to feel like I am a child. I know I am not perfect but that does not mean I should be made to feel like I am stupid. I make mistakes, please someone should show me somebody who does not make them too and I would tell you that either the person is the biggest liar on earth or the person is ‘Jesus Christ’.

He makes me feel like I am a child sometimes so I guess after some stroking I just got fed up and the feelings started waning. Nowadays when he starts I just keep quiet and let him vent. When he is calmer I start talking. I guess I am thinking of my future and don’t want anything I say to be used against me later in life. I am usually a person who gives as well as I get but I am getting tired of the whole defender of myself attitude with him. It seems to be the same thing all the time and it is getting tiring.

That is what I have been doing lately with every situation I find myself in. I just shut up and let people do all the talking because in future the same people could use those words against me.

I have always gone through life with the feeling that I may not be the best person but I don’t deserve the worst. I don’t deserve someone treating me in a bad way. I try to treat everyone with respect (I may not be successful but I do try), so I think I deserve the same treatment.

Anyhow, my old feeling of ‘loving myself and being grateful for my life’ seems to be back. So everything seems to be child’s play now. I would hold on and hold out waiting for the right person for me till then I would try to enjoy myself, who knows I might have met the person who would love me for me and treat me as a grown up. I would definitely keep my fingers crossed.

That is all for now folks. Thank you for reading my blog. I should be back soon. Hopefully I won’t have another writer’s block.

Luv ya all.
Petite Diva

Thursday, May 5, 2011

BOYS AND THEIR GAMES (PART 2)

A lot of you guys have been eagerly waiting for the concluding part to my ‘boys and their games’ story. I am so sorry that it took this long. I have been feeling lazy and some other things have contributed to its delay (for those in Nigeria you know what the mighty PHCN can do when they are crazy).

However without further ado, here goes the concluding part. Hope you enjoy it.

So like I said a few days after the ‘talking to’ or should I rather say ‘telling to’ I was flipping through his phone and decided to flip through his texts. I normally don’t do that because I would hate it when people read or flip through my texts (I shouldn’t have done it, it is a very nasty thing to do and I don’t advise anyone to do so) but I don’t know what made me check it that day.

I saw some texts that were dated some months that were sent to a particular number that I didn’t bother with. Why? You might ask. The simple reason, we were not involved then so why bother my head about past drama. So I continued flipping through and saw some other texts that were recent and had suspicious contents. Which made me wonder; ‘was this guy still with this chic when he started with me?’ However the most important question was ‘Is this guy STILL with this chic when we are OFFICIAL?’

My conclusion was YEP! He was with the chic when he was starting with me. I don’t know why he was still keeping up with the chic. Was he trying to make sure that he had secured me before letting her go? I was seriously mad and a bit hurt. Then I got into my ‘nobody messes with me and gets away with it mode’ and decided I was going to get my revenge. I was really mad; I was like a bull seeing a red flag. I had to comport myself and cool down so that I didn’t blow up in his face. I wanted to punch something. I really wished I could box and had a punching bag or that I knew martial arts so that I could release my anger.

Two things that can make me mad with a guy are cheating (and lying about it) and hitting me. I see red when they happen. I am a like a tornado, destroying anything in sight. Then I calm down and feel sad but contented that I tried to do something about it.

I chatted with some friends on what I should do and they all gave me the answer that they felt was best. They were different. I even spoke to someone close, apparently he knew about the whole game plan before I did and tried to warn me but as stubborn as I am I didn’t listen. That is a major problem that I have, I AM STUBBORN. However I decided to calm down and do things my own way.

What have I decided to do? I am going to give him the benefit of doubt and hope that he was initially trying to play me but when we got closer he decided that he couldn’t continue with the game (I am deceiving myself, right?). I am just trying to see the good part in him.

And I am playing the forgiveness card because I am human too and can be flawed in my judgment especially if one has friends that can influence you in a negative way unless you are willing to stand up and refuse to be influenced. Besides I have not caught him in the act ….yet and flipping through his texts is not permitted when judging in this case.

I would play my cards right in this game and if he messes up just a little bit (not once), he would feel my wrath. I would deal with him in a ‘wonder woman, Margaret Thatcher and petite diva’ way that he would never forget. And that would be really nasty cos you have the strength of wonder woman, the independence and strictness of Margaret and the flair of a diva. How would I do it? That is for me to know and for you to never find out.

Till then I am playing the role of an ignorant girlfriend in this game and riding this wave. Maybe something good would come out of it and maybe not. Whatever the case maybe I know I would come out on top of the situation and I would definitely have a wonderful story to tell you guys.

Hope you have enjoyed this piece. I would love to ask you ‘my dear readers’ some questions.
1. Was I wrong to check his text messages? I feel it was wrong but now I can see so much clearer.
2. Should I have confronted him then?
3. Should I end it now without confronting him or continue with my benefit of doubt plan and see what happens?

I am confused. I have too many issues right now (would let you guys know about it soon) and don’t want this one to be part of it. One thing I can say though is ‘relationship is a load of hard work and I don’t know if I am cut out for it’. Sometimes I just want to be on my own again.

I would love to know what you think. You can write your comments here or on my facebook wall. Thank ya very much.

That is all folks. Hope to see you soon.
Luv ya,
Confused petite Diva.

Monday, May 2, 2011

MY TAKE ON THE ROYAL WEDDING

I know I promised to give you guys the concluding part to my story on boys and their games but the whole royal wedding that occurred a few days ago and its craze has made me to put it on hold and say something about the whole thing. I am not an expert or something but this is what I feel.

Where should I start? I know…..HER DRESS.


It was simply elegant and divine. I loved the lace details, I loved the sleeves, I loved d skirt details. What I loved the most was the lace sleeves which did not make the dress look trashy. It was a refreshing change from all the tube/sleeveless gowns that I have been seeing lately. I was arguing with someone about some months ago that a wedding dress with sleeves can look really great.

When I said that, I was thinking along the line of the concept that was used. I think the Anglican Church/ Mother’s Union in Nigeria would not object to that kind of dress. For people who don’t understand let me explain. The Anglican Church frowns on tube or sleeveless gowns, if the vicar is one crazy person the bride can be sent out of the church and he wouldn’t care less.
What I didn’t like however was the sweetheart neckline of the inner gown. I would have preferred a straight neckline but the dress worked with her so it is all good.

I have been talking about Kate’s dress though I also love her sister’s dress. It was also simply divine. It could be great as a second wedding dress. Way to go! Middleton’s Chics.

Okay, now to what I didn’t like. The HYPE! The hype was too much if you ask me considering that most of the royal’s marriages have not lasted. With the exception of the queen’s own and one of her child’s (can’t remember his name, besides his marriage is still young), all of the have crumbled and they are on their second marriages. I would think that people would mellow down but I guess British guys are different.

Then the fact that because she is now a princess she can no longer be called Kate but now Catherine (say that in a British accent). If she wants to be called Kate people should respect that.

All in all, it was a great wedding but really long. I hope they are happy now and try to stay that way. I also hope that Kate knows what she is getting into and is prepared for the royal life because those who have stepped into didn’t really come out of it happy.

Well, that is my own take on the wedding of Prince William and Princess Kate, I am sorry Princess Catherine. The newest Duke and Duchess Of Cambridge.

I wonder what would happen when Prince Harry gets married. What title would he and his wife be given?

I really should talk about the clothes and crazy hats that the guests wore that day. Maybe when I have the pictures I would do a mini fashion police episode here. That would be cool, don’t you think? A Fashion Police episode featuring the ‘one and only’ Petite diva…..lol.

I gotta run. Should be back soon with the concluding story to ‘boys and games’ story. Stick with me and you are sure to enjoy the ride.

Luv ya all,
Petite Diva.
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