So most of my friends are married and those that are not married are
engaged. Then some of my classmates are either masters degree holders or in the
process of getting the degree. And me, i am single and don't have a second degree. Recently a senior colleague said she gives me
till the middle of next year to either be engaged or married else we would have
a major falling. Almost every month I am asked when I am getting married and
while some people are subtle, some are downright mean with their words. A friend told me
that I should better go and get married, that do I think I am getting younger,
she point blank said that ‘I am old!’. And
she said so in front of some friends and people I didn’t even know. I felt bad that
day but I remembered something and everything became better.
For people who have been reading my blog for a long time, you would
remember that I once said I was almost on the border of developing depression. So
after undergoing a healing process with God as my therapist, I have vowed not
to allow people to cause me to be sad.
So whenever I am about to enter into a state of pre-depression, God
reminds me that my race/journey is not the same with anybody’s at all. It could
be a true 'live' word spoken into my heart when I am walking or at work when some
words are said or it could be when I am reading a book or a devotional booklet (okay,
here is a shameless plugging in of the devotional book I use, it is OUR DAILY MANNA by a
pharmacist, Dr Chris kwakpovwe…#smiling but really it could be any book or thing) or a
movie or someone who I know their history could pass by and I am reminded that
God is in control of everything. Then like magic, the feeling passes away and I
am perky (or at least better than before) as normal.
Basically every day we learn and I am learning different things and
when some things happen I give thanks and appreciate all that I have right now.
I appreciate all that I am learning because I know what I am learning is to
make me a better person in the future. I appreciate what i have in my hands right now and like Moses in the Bible, i know that God can and would use what i have in my hands to help me fulfill my purpose in life.
So when my friend or friends, senior colleague, family members or
other people ask me why I am not married or they try to make me feel bad about
anything concerning my life, I just tell God ‘Did you hear that? Okay o God, over
to you’. And he says ‘your journey is not their journey and when everything is
perfect, when the timing is perfect, things would fall into place because my ways are not you ways’ (the
words differ depending on the situations but you guys understand what I am
trying to say). So with me receiving that confirmation from the maker of the
universe, I look at the people and smile cos I know that I am not them, I am
ME.
So right now, I enjoy every second, every minute, every hour, every
day, every month, every year that I live and I know that by finding fulfillment
with God and in the life that God has given, it causes me to have a peace and
joy that knows no bounds. And that when other challenges come in life, that
peace which passes all understanding shall be with me always and no one would
be able to take it away from me.
I am not saying I don’t have some down days (who doesn’t?) but I am
comforted by the fact that I know that when those days come, I would be able to
rise above them (it might take a while but eventually it would happen) and have
a reason to walk on sunshine almost every day.
I know that people might think I am sounding a bit defensive or
something(i can't tell you how to think). But people’s words have caused some people who are not
blessed to have been as strong or would I say to have come to understand life
the way I do, to tip over the edge. We have heard cases of
suicide because they compared their lives with others and came to the
conclusion that their lives meant nothing. So I just felt it was time I shared
what I felt with you guys and hopefully someone out there would be able to
understand their own journey and live a better and fulfilled life.
And before someone goes off on me for my recent posts, this is a blog
about me, a blog on the lessons I learn in life. It is not a strictly gossip,
hair, fashion, health, gist blog, it is about everything I am and feel. And lately
this is what I feel. Tomorrow I might want to talk about fashion or hair however my hope is that my blog achieves something positive in your lives.
Would be travelling home soon, Yay!! Hope I enjoy my stay at home. Before
I forget, thanks to all my facebook friends who bother to click on the link on
my page and read my blog, you guys are amazing. All my readers are amazing. And
guess what folks? I have found a way to share the link from my facebook page to
my twitter page, whoop! Whoop!!. I am so excited that my twitter followers can
know when I write a post immediately I do. You all can follow me on twitter, my i.d is @Bimbola25. I don’t
tweet much (cos I really I am restricted by the 150 words stuff) but I do post
some pics now and then as I am not on instagram....#smiling.
Gotta run now guys, hope to write soon.
Luv ya very much,
Petite Diva
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