I am really sorry that I have been unable to write this sooner but I have
resumed at my work place and things have been crazy. My boss is on leave
and I had to arrange the books and the unit. Then I have been trying to arrange
my house cos when I was going on my leave, I kinda of scattered my place. Why I
was able to write this now is because I was on call today.
Anyway, here is my post. So I earlier said that I planned my trip to
south Africa just to have fun, shop and be adventurous. I didn’t know that I was going to
come back completely different.
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| Motivation to rock my fro |
HAIRINSPIRATION: You all know that I was getting a little bit tired of
my natural journey cos I don’t seem to be enjoying rocking my hair. However
when I went for the SAB world of beer tour, the lady leading us was a natural.
She had her hair in a fro and adorned with a scarf. And I was like whoa, she is
rocking her fro fiercely. I got the motivation to rock my fro because of that. I have been rocking my fro since yesterday. I washed my hair yesterday and I
didn’t hide it under a wig. I also noticed that a lot of the South African
ladies love deadlocks and their deadlocks were cute and different from what I
was used to. Read in a magazine that people were even cutting unsuspecting
people’s locks off.......weird.
SPIRITUAL: I attended my friend’s church, Rivers Church. It is church
like I was not used to. The pastors were so simple. I wouldn’t have known the
senior pastor if we didn’t watch a clip where his name was written. The choir
and pastors wore simple clothes, nothing fancy. The service was a bit confusing
at first but when it was over, I was not happy that I had only one Sunday to
spend in SA, i enjoyed myself. Pastor Oliver (the senior pastor) preached on “the pursuit of
happiness”. He stated that happiness only comes from God. That working towards
your purpose in life and not working after pleasure can make you happy. He
stated that no one including a spouse can make you happy. He also talked about
women trying to be like men and at the end of the day they are not happy. I
don’t really know if I fully understood his point there. But the sermon made me
think, I need to know what my purpose in this life. It also encouraged me to
let go and let God lead the way. Anytime things come up and I start to get
depressed, I remember the sermon and have the motivating spirit I need to
continue. By the way, can I say I loved the church building and the time spent
during service? And I also loved the sincerity of the senior pastor. Can you
imagine, he actually said he used smoke Indian hemp? So no one should think he
is above mistakes.
EMOTIONAL: When I went to Apartheid museum, I saw all the hardship that
South Africans went through and I saw the people that fought for what they have
now. I don’t really like history and at a point things were getting a little
too much for me, there was so much information that it was beginning to just get too
much. However at some point in the visit, I saw that the South Africans (some
of them were even white) had courage. They were willing to die for what they
believed in. they fought not for themselves but for their children. Even the
high school students fought for a proper educational system and they got killed
but they were ready to fight for the right thing. I asked myself if I could be
like them. Am I capable of fighting for what I believed in? Learning about
their history has made me see that I need to stand for what I believe is the
right thing and not be swayed by the opinion of the world.
RELATIONSHIP ISSUES: Also as I went to places like Sandton City mall,
Hyde Park mall, Lion Park, Monte Casino and the likes, I was inspired by the
people. I realized I deserved better. I realized that I was not inferior to
anybody. In most of my relationship, or I should rather say in all, I have made
the mistake of feeling like I was not worthy of the person I was dating so I
ended up appearing clingy and they ended up hurting me. But while I was there I
saw that I am an amazing person. I decided I wanted to go to South Africa and
God made it happen despite the initial discouraging remarks I heard from family
and friends. Realizing that I was able to achieve my dream made me feel that I am not that bad and I needed to conduct myself in such way. I am better and I
deserve better! So I am determined to focus on better and not make do with
people that think that I am not worth it.
FINANCIALLY: The fact that I
was able to save and afford the trip and shop in SA showed me the importance of
saving and having a purpose for saving.
Knowing that I am a shopaholic and can spend my money like crazy has
made saving hard. But because I was determined to go to SA, I was able to focus
and save for the trip. I want to go on other trips and for those trips I need
money. And I have also some personal changes that I saw need to be carried out.
I am now inspired to save because I now have a purpose or rather purposes so
hopefully I would be more than strict in saving. Thankfully I think I have
enough clothes and shoes (which are some of my weaknesses), oils and hair
products for my hair (got some on my trip *coversmyeyes) to last me about 6-8
months. All I need is to walk away from temptations and remember my purposes.
CAREER WISE: Watching the people there carry out their jobs with so much finesse and enthusiasm has inspired me to be better at my job. I know that with all that I have on
my plate right now that things might not be easy, however I am determined to
try my best. And I also went to some major pharmacies there which has given me
ideas on how I would like my pharmacy to be. I am now working towards my goal
of having a pharmacy that would be exactly what I dream off and much more.
I know it is a lengthy post but I feel someone out there reading this
might be inspired to be better. I really hope you enjoyed it. I have to go now. Hope I
would be able to write soon.
Love ya,
Petite Diva….
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