A MIXTURE OF TEARS OF SORROW AND JOY……THE MONTH OF JUNE 2012

Hi guys, for those who know me, you would know the reason for my absence. For those who don't know me, here is the reason for my absence.

The last few weeks have been one heck of a ride. It is by God’s Grace I am writing this. I really dread writing this entry but I guess I am using this write up for closure.

From the 11th of June, things have not gone exactly as planned (actually from the 3rd when there was a plane crash in lagos). On that fateful day(the 11th), my Head of Department (HOD) had an accident that eventually led to her death. Saying or writing that she is dead still feels like a dream. I just can’t believe that she is gone. Last week Monday, a condolence register was opened for her and I feel that it is for another person. In my mind I feel that she travelled and has not yet returned. I was telling someone recently of the plans being made for her burial and I just thought of the fact that I was saying ‘burial’ for my HOD.

It hurts to recall all that happened but I would try to. On a fateful cold and rainy Tuesday, my friend and I wanted to sneak into our call room to sleep when we heard that our HOD had an accident on the previous day. We saw the driver and the police escort trying to get some things, when we asked about our HOD they could not tell us anything concrete about her wellbeing or whereabouts.

We later found out she was in the intensive care unit (ICU). I was opportune to enter and almost passed out later. It took the grace of God and my determination not to cause a scene outside where other pharmacists had gathered. I saw my HOD with an oxygen face mask, neck collar and doctors surrounding here. She looked like she was in a coma. Later on we found out that she was paralysed in her lower limbs.

After some days she was transferred to a hospital in Abuja where she was to undergo a surgery before she would be flown out of the country. God decided to take my HOD from us in Abuja because 2 days after the surgery at exactly 5:10am on 18th June 2012 my HOD went to rest with the Lord.

When I found out I was numb because I couldn’t believe that she was gone. I couldn’t believe that I had lost 2 people I knew within 4 days. My grand aunty had died on the 15th of June 2012. Even though she was 93 years I had cried. In fact from the 12th to 18th of June I have shed more tears than i had in 6 months. I felt so alone, so depressed for days and to make things worse, 'babes' was not around. I called on God and tried so hard to relie on his word. I held on to Psalm 46:10. Every time I felt anxious and so sad, I quoted it. Let me truthful, it didn’t always calm me down. I was in a zombie like state for days…..

The month of June was really crazy and sad. With the plane crash on June 3rd to the stupid and senseless bombings of Boko Haram, June was just not it for me. However it was not all sadness as my friend got married to her heartthrob on the 30th of June and I had a chance to witness an Oron traditional marriage and go to Calabar for the first time.

I am so happy for her and can’t wait for my own wedding though I am a bit scared of the money that would be spent. Planning a wedding or getting married ain’t a joke. It is sooooo stressful and money consuming. I would upload the few pictures that I was able to take as I was so busy running around making sure that my friend’s day went on without so much hitches.

That is all I am able to write today folks. I just feel like cuddling up to my teddy bear right now as the rains have started again (when would it stop? It is raining every blessed day here in uyo. I tire for it o!)

Luv ya folks,
Petite Diva